Sapphire & Steel
Who knows what he is thinking, as we travel there. He cradles me in his arms - not saying much, miles away. He is looking out of the train window to somewhere in the distance and my head is on his chest. J'en tent en coer.
The mind boggles at the thinking behind such an unusual and strange demand. What to some might seem impossibly harsh, I understand and share in.
This is obviously something he very much wants, and so it therefore follows that it is also something I very much want. I will suffer for his pleasure, his voyeuristic pleasure on this occasion as he gets to see how I perform from an outside perspective. Quite unique thinking because as a participant, you never quite get to see what is really going on, and now he will have that also. Quite a powerful psychology is unfolding here. Every action has implications, but it is not just cause and effect, these implications have ripples! He is asking me to remove my barriers, my inhibitions and allowing me to submit to him. Yes allowing! If there barriers are not removed, he will tear them down for me. Ooooh, he gives me shivers.
I get to be the Star of the Show - spotlight on me, with everybody looking at me. He is delivering me into someone elses hands. Placing me in the hands of a professional crew. To be stripped possibly and spanked or something else??? OMG and there is no way out now. This thing is proper.
And I have no idea other than a vague where and what, of any of the details. He made the Booking and hasn't shared any of the details with me.
Man of Steel - impenetrable, unreadable. Just don't disobey him today. Not one word of cheek will pass my lips today. I need his protection today and I need his approval. And I need to do for him what he is doing for me - satisfy the thirst for this kind of thrill.
He helps me off the train - such a gentleman! You'd think they wouldn't be. Dominant men love and respect their Submissives far more than any conventional coupledom. The bond has to be very very deep you see, otherwise you simply would not trust and then it simply would not work. The fire is an essential ingredient, that and the desire itself. It takes a special kind of man to be able to manifest this sort of a fantasy because in order to re-enact the fantasy, you simply have to live it for real. And every detail counts. Action is very deliberate and meaningful. Because of what you are being given, you want to give back and because what you are being given cuts straight to the heart, what you give back is equal and opposite to it. You are allowing someone access to a part of yourself that even you may not fully understand.
Have you ever seen a couple holding hands and strolling along down the street, well I am being pulled along like a wayward rebel - a different kind of handholding! His hand holding mine is telling me that I belong to him and that I am simply going nowhere unless it is with him. His hand holds mine tightly. To stop me from escaping? No Its to make me feel safe. He's reassuring me. Because I am starting to drag my heels a bit - postpone the inevitable dreaded moment when I will be appearing in a film about me being punished. I thought he wouldn't be able to lift even a finger to me over the past week, but guess what? I am now being pulled along by my ear like something out of the 1960's. Oh I wish we could both go back in time to a time when every self-respecting man was a the man of the house, with a cane or two knocking about, and submissive women knew their place!
He doesn't have to punish me anyway. All he needs to do is whisper in my ear with that sultry, hypnotically sexy voice of his, telling me what is going to happen next time. That will put me into the required state. It never fails. I relax and go dreamy and limp, my eyes close and I feel heat and arousal taking over my body and it just softens, opening up to him. A very submissive place, that he can put me into just like that and I am literally hypnotised by him. That is exactly what happens. And the further it goes, the deeper it gets and the stronger his hold is becoming over me, every day, unbreakable now after only 2 weeks, where will this be in 2 months? (This is the subject matter of another story plan, to come after the 5 episodes at the REmote Cottage which I havent' finished yet, sir. I will send you one a day to keep you hard and happy).
Now he has left me waiting in some sort of holding area while he goes to discuss the arrangements - while I sit here, not a little bit nervous and wishing he would come back and hold me. Hold me close.
To be continued .......................................
Sapphire & Steel - one of the original D/s relationships
